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January 23rd, 2023 5:59 pm
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Leave an anonymous comment. It can be anything you have always wanted to say to me in the past or something you just want to get off your chest about your life in general that you feel you cannot tell anyone right now.

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Character Meme 001 - Character Meme 002
30 Days of Ship Meme - 30 Days of Writing Meme
15 Days of RP Meme
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January 6th, 2022 4:42 pm
    | Rules |
    - I'm stealing prompt tables so that I have something to write about. I need inspiration.
    - I will NOT use anything that I have already written because that's cheating. (Damn me and my sense of fair play.)
    - I can use fandom and/or pre-existing worlds, but I will also try to make it original. Maybe even AU.
    - All writing will go to this journal.
    - If I steal your character and you don't like it, bonk me. If you do like it, poke me.
    - If you wish to collaborate, poke me. We shall, but you must pick the prompt before doing so.
    - All adult prompts will be 'friends only'.
    - No less than 500 words will be used because that seems like a good number.
    - I've changed five in all tables to "Writer's Choice" because I just didn't like what they were (two were cities).
    - I will NOT write these in numerical order because that will only put up a block in my brain. Fight the OCD, Lori, fight it!

- Requests will be taken! Give me a prompt, I'll see what comes out. Add in a fandom and/or characters and I'll really see what I can do.

Horror Table )

Adult Table )

Random )

Story/Post Format )
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March 8th, 2015 6:03 am
I'm still alive, btw. I'm just trying to figure out what I want to do anymore.

I'm going to apply for a game and see if I feel up to writing anymore. I just need to scratch the damn itch so it'll stop. :(
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March 1st, 2014 10:25 am
I've logged into every journal I can get my grubby little hands on. I think I've saved the journals that are important to me. It's basically anything that has sentimental value to me: A couple Emma journals and then journals from a couple other games. I don't know why I save them. I think I'm afraid to let them go even though I'm probably never going to do anything with them again. It's a sad thing.
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January 27th, 2014 8:27 am

It's going to take some work to get everything I want back onto it, but at least now I can type rather than squinting at my damn phone to read whatever I want.

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September 5th, 2013 6:58 pm
I think I'm going to work on my CDJ and give fishing for PSLs a try again. I just feel like it. I suppose I'll have to put together some more lines that sound interesting AND give playing guys another round, because that seems to be what people are wanting to do. They want you to play males so they can either a) be their love interest or b) slash them. I'm not doing slash, because then all it does is make me think of my brother's sex life and I don't feel like it. He doesn't want to think about mine and I don't want to think about his. End of story. I figure if I didn't have so many gay friends and a gay brother, I'd feel differently maybe. Oh, well.

So, once I get finished with the prompt I'm writing for my wordpress blog, I may work on my CDJ. I may end up moving it all here in order to just condense it all into one journal and do away with the other. That way I don't have to worry about messing with anything else anymore. Considering I do log into this one to read other people's posts, I may do that. It's just something for me to do on my off days other than Xbox and allows me to keep writing. That and it allows me to ignore my wedding that is fast approaching. That way I don't get freaked out about it. :)
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July 24th, 2013 11:49 pm
I have seen Pacific Rim and I now want to play in an RP with Jaegers and Kaiju. Nothing awakens my inner child more than giant monsters vs giant robots. ^_^
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May 17th, 2013 7:18 am
Writing Meme has been updated.
RP Meme has been updated.

Makes me feel better to do a little writing really. I also updated My Blog with information about planning my wedding. Jesus, this is going to be difficult. I didn't realize wedding planning was so much work. /dies
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May 15th, 2013 3:19 am
15 Days of Rp [
I need something to do... Updating this one as well.

Favorite character(s) you've ever made. )
Favorite gender to play. )
Characters you've made more than once. )

Day 04: Biggest pet peeve
Day 05: A graphic you're proud of
Day 06: Pb(s) you've grown to love through rp
Day 07: A plot you'd like to do in the future
Day 08: 'Ships you would like to do in the future
Day 09: Character(s) who have progressed greatly
Day 10: Favorite character friendships
Day 11: Favorite setting
Day 12: Favorite character(s) someone else plays
Day 13: A memory
Day 14: Character you'll most likely never play again (it's my party, I can change questions if I want to)
Day 15: Favorite game(s) you've been in or are in
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May 10th, 2013 6:56 am
My man had us watch First Class last night and it has got me wanting to write just a little bit. I'm going to sort through some stuff and see what I feel like doing. Even if it's just organizing things to waste time, that's still better than doing nothing.
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April 19th, 2013 8:02 am
I've decided to give up on my writing for the time being. I'm having trouble with it and my overall emotional well-being so I'm throwing in the towel. I'm going to stop trying to push myself to do what can't be done anymore and just let it go.
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December 21st, 2012 6:26 am
Meesha, I don't know when your card came in exactly, but I got it this morning when I got home. Thanks so much! I love receiving random shit from people via snail mail. It makes my day, because it's still awesome even with email and internet. I've always been a tactile person. I like holding things in my hands and so I appreciate the effort. :D
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December 17th, 2012 2:22 am
I've been listening to the first episodes of Masters Cast and it's really, really making me want to write something for She-Ra. I almost want to RP in the Masters of the Univers/Princess of Power worlds, but I know I'm too "old" for role playing anymore. I can barely make myself focus on writing anything.

I've been uber-exhausted for the past few weeks, but I'm thinking that it's because my potassium and B12 are down to nil again. I don't like taking pills/medicine so I'm thinking that, maybe, I could just down one of those 5-Hour Energy drinks once a week since it's so full of B vitamins that it might reset me back to normal. I'm going to do that today when I leave work (as I am at work) and see if that makes me feel better. I'm literally groggy at work during my normal waking hours. Ugh, it sucks. I sleep all the time and I'm always tired. It's driving my fiance crazy, because I'm always asleep.

Otherwise, I'm looking forward to Christmas. My mother got me seasons one and two of The Universe for my birthday as well as season one of Once Upon A Time. I can't wait to see what DVDs she got me for Christmas! :D It's exciting! I'm also looking forward to whatever it is that my man got me for Christmas. He's so excited about it, that he's trying to give me gifts early. I keep telling him "no" so he won't do it. He's always so excited. I love it.

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and Happy New Year. :)
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November 29th, 2012 8:30 am
Wedding Countdown Ticker
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November 6th, 2012 7:17 am
I miss MU. I miss it so damn much. No one else can understand just how much I miss that game, because they weren't there. It was a mess. It was non-stop. It was amazing.

I've reached a point in my life where I, again, feel as if I'm alone. There are many different reasons for this and none of them make any damn sense. I'll be turning 30 in about a month and I will be going through some extremely life-changing events within the next year. The man I've been dating for a year proposed to me on October 19th. I, of course, blubbered like a giant baby when he did it. I'm both very excited and very frightened by this whole thing. We had made plans to move in together in the spring and he wanted to make our engagement official before we did. I think it pleased my mother very much considering the man I had dated during my teens was a useless jackass. Lee is different. He is amazing and I do believe I love him with all my heart even when he annoys the shit out of me.

I think the one thing that makes me feel useless is that I've tossed my writing to the side. In my life, the one thing that has always made me feel good about myself has been my writing—particularly my role-playing. It has always made me feel as if I have something to share and be loved for. Now that I'm loved for being myself, I don't feel as if I really know who I am. I feel as if I've lost something. I feel empty and alone even though I'm not alone.

I can't understand why I'm depressed. I mean, I understand a few things about it. I am disgusted with the way I look and my weight. I hate seeing myself in mirrors, other than my face, and avoid them at all costs. I eat and obsess over food non-stop. My self-loathing has gotten to the point that I occasionally break down in tears when I feel at my lowest. I'm listless and give up easily. I have no reason to feel this way. My life has never been as wonderful and full of love as it is right now. My anxiety has also been on the rise. Little things that never made me tick before have been making me tick now. I've been impatient with things and irritable with people when I'm trying to do something. I've even noticed that I've been quieter lately. I don't feel like adding to conversations sometimes.

I don't know what to make of it. I don't know what would be causing me to feel like this. I have trouble with my hormones making me depressed and moody, but this just feels worse. I'm afraid of what the future holds for me and I think that's a big part of it. I'm afraid of the changes ahead of me and I'm unsure if the choices I'm making are right. I'm tired of things changing so quickly. I want things to stay the same and safe longer. It bothers me that I can't find balance in my life when I should feel the most safe and secure.

I really just don't know what to do.
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October 19th, 2012 9:58 am
So... I'm engaged.

Just FYI.
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June 9th, 2011 3:45 am
Character Outlines [
I have these people stuck in my head. I need to deposit them here.

Gears of War: Sigma-3 Squad )
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January 5th, 2011 10:40 am
Because it is full of awesome... [
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November 13th, 2010 1:45 am
Random Prompt 01 - Air [
Prompt: Random - Prompt 01: Air
Fandom: None; Original
Title: The Avatar of Air
Warnings & Ratings: G.
Character(s): The elemental avatars from my original works.
Pairing(s): None.
Summary: The air avatar reflects.
Word Count: 1,001
Disclaimer: All mine.

Read on. )
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July 30th, 2010 8:00 am
30 Days of Writing Meme [
Done in spurts, because I didn't do it after my St. Louis trip... )
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